Why did I arrive at the Guard philosophy?

There is an accelerator.
But there was no brake.

I have been like that since long ago.

Trading,
the amount I eat,
the games,
once I enter a zone, I can’t stop.

When my focus is high,
I can push things forward all at once.

But on the other hand,
when I broke, it happened all at once too.

So in the past I thought,
“I have to make my will stronger,”
I believed.

But that was mistaken.

What was really needed
wasn't grit.

It was a “structure that can stop.”