Shall I tell you the story of the woman who melted away one hundred million yen

​[Serialized article: Shall I tell you the story of the woman who melted away 100 million yen?]

​*This article is a truthful record that the author reached after 15 years and paying the price of 100 million yen. To optimize time efficiency, about 90% of it was written by AI, but the crucial 10% are the words I lived by.

​Chapter 1: The 100 Million Yen as "Tuition"

​“Shall I tell you the story of the woman who melted away 100 million yen.” When I began with that line, my own voice surprised me with how dry it was.

Fifteen years ago, I knocked on the door of speculation and gambling. FX, automated trading systems, and keirin and boat racing. Every minute and second could sway assets worth hundreds of millions, and astronomical numbers danced on the other side of the screen. The tuition I paid in such a world totaled 100 million yen.

​To an ordinary person, that would sound like the sound of ruin. But for me, it was different. It was the price of life itself. Even after losing 100 million yen, I would not leave this battlefield. Because I learned that there is a “truth” that can be obtained only here.

​Chapter 2: Enlightenment — Consciousness that Out-of-Body Drifts

​The moment arrived suddenly, one day.

Days of losses, endless data analysis, a nerve-wracking tension that scorched the brain. When those pressures reached their limit and the vessel that is “self” could endure no more, I was enveloped in a strange sensation.

​It felt as if my consciousness was being raised a few meters above my body — a so-called “out-of-body experience.” From one level up, I watched myself growing heated before the charts. There stood a pitiable “player” who was beset by positional addiction and tossed about by desire and fear.

The moment I saw that self objectively, I achieved “enlightenment.”

​Chapter 3: Iron Discipline — Abandonment of Self-Control

​The conclusion I arrived at after enlightenment was thorough external delegation and discipline.

To control oneself is, in fact, the most difficult thing in this world. Because I cannot trust myself, I decided to entrust everything to a cold executor called a “system.”

​What I require of the system is absolute reproducibility that allows not even 1% compromise or a hint of alteration. In gambling, even the slightest change “for the better” can become a fatal bug and trigger millions in losses. Having gone through 15 years of trials and melted away 100 million yen, for me any deviation in discipline is the synonym of death.

So how should it be done? My previous answer was to entrust myself to AI. However... the next hypothesis I arrived at was...